Thursday, March 3, 2011

Mom in the shot Mar 2nd {Bobi and Corn}

I love looking at pictures in a sequence.
They always tell a story.
And this story's theme:
Bean's loves him some corn...

{Bean, MIL, Buggie}

As we say in our house when we eat corn, see you today and see you tomorrow.

Go check out all the cool people embracing their cameras...

Can I speak what's on my mind for a few?
Of course I can this is my blog.
Thats what's its for.
A place for me to be me and feel ok with that.

I have been in a funk a lot lately.
It comes in waves but it stays for a while. I feel lonely.
Most days are a blur of diaper changes, meals for everyone, and cleaning.

I want to feel excited about something, anything.
Hubs tries to help.
He asks "Do you want to go back to work?"
My answer is pretty quick on that one "No."
But I want something, something for me.
I feel all my days are spent for everyone else.

I know, I know it could be a lot worst and I am very lucky.
But this is therapeutic for me, to "talk" about it.
So lets roll with it...

I have friends that I seem to push away when I get like this.
Why they are still my friends, I have no clue.
Who wants to socialize with Debbie Downer {wah wahhhhhhh}?!

I need to find my thing.
Something to get my juices flowing.
And get me back.

Thanks for listening.
Send me my bill.


-Jenni said...

I know this feeling well. It hits me every so often, and it is a depressing feeling. I'm so sorry you are feeling this way. If you need a distraction, let me know. I will be happy to have lunch and hang out with Debbie Downer! Bean and my little gal can play, and we can talk about fun stuff! Miss you!

cami said...

Been there. Been there! It does come in waves and I often have to give myself a "shot" of ME TIME! I'll schedule a movie night with a girlfriend or just get away to window shop and wander, without kids.. and hopefully with a friend. Otherwise.. a good sulking on the couch for ONE day, always depresses me enough to boost me up the next day (or 3 days later). It's so tough with little ones and when their natural demands consume us, we lose sight of who we are, what we want and where we are going... just know that the end will come all to quickly and you'll look back one day and miss Debbie Downer :)

Melissa (Punkin Threads) said...

What about your wreaths?! What about joining the Y? I think that's what I would do. Oh and a book club? But one where you don't actually read the book, you just get together once a week and drink lots of wine. Those are my ideas :-) That will be $100.

Mommy Girl said...

you are not alone. I think it is so important for Moma's to remember that you are a person with likes, dislikes, feelings, talents... all APART from your children or mommyhood! You matter. You are the end - not just a means to an end. God loves you, not because you're a great mom or wife, but because you are His daughter. God will show you your thing!

Unknown said...

haha. love the corn pictures!!!!!
Everyone goes thru those feelings.... its always so frustrating!
Ps. loving your wreaths!

lesleyzellers said...

Love the pics and the motto on corn! Hilarious. Hang in there, it will pass.

MJ said...

Such great memories with your MIL.

I know what you mean about finding something just for you. I definitely know how you feel. My solution has always been to have a hobby (usually some sort of exercise class or baking class), but it is just so hard to find the time and energy for it. Hang in there!

Lindsay - Pen and Paint said...

You sound like me.
I have no answer. It seems like a wheel of chaos. The only hope I have is that this season will change. For now I am thinking about losing 20 pounds and getting a nose ring. Seriously.

I literally couldn't stop laughing from your awkward post yesterday. And then J. Nato's comment...If my life was as awkward as yours I don't know that I would ever be down.

Send a check for $79.63. Thanks.

sue said...

i don't have any great advice or words of wisdom (although at my age you think i oughta have some by now!), but will let you know i think of you as one of the most interesting and intriguing people i have met since i moved to florida. i have looked forward to every time we've gotten together and think you of as an amazing, inspiring mother as well as just an all around cool woman! being in a funk isn't going to get rid of any friends. we'll all be here when you're ready to hang out. and we've all (or most of us) been where you are. it's never fun, but it passes. until then, do what you gotta do, for you. xoxox

Alyss said...

I feel ya. I get like that a lot, too. It's like there aren't enough hours in the day for me to find my niche. I don't have an answer for you, but I hope you know that you aren't alone! We all still like you, even if you feel like a Debbie Downer.

Jennifer said...

I remember feeling like that too. I just wanted something for myself, something that didn't involve kids and diaper bags and remembering to bring the sippy cups. But now that my kids have both started school I suddenly have 4 hours all to my self every day to do just that very thing, and I don't know what the heck to do. I feel like I've lost myself in those 6 years of being at home all day with them. Ugh. It's a vicious cycle. But we'll all figure it out!
Super cute pictures! =)

Wendy said...

I think all of us moms can relate to an extent. Usually this time of the year, I am in a funk ~ for some reason it always hits me around Valentines day. Seriously, I remember crying in the health club shower a couple of years ago. It could be the seasons ~ these long, cool, drab and dreary winter days. This year the funk wasn't so bad ~ I was focused on organizing a huge fundraiser. Like so many of the other commenters, I think you should grab a girl friend or two and do a ladies day or night ~ shopping, coffee, pedi's. , something. I know there are evenings when the last thing I want to do is go out, but once I'm there its good to be out. If I lived closer I'd make you come out with me :) Blessings to you and know that you are not alone!!!

Stephanie said...

was just thinking (crying) about this this morning. i too am lost in the abyss of motherhood. i really dislike loosing myself to something that is SO very important. i've got to get my groove back...but have no idea where to look for it. don't see it my hubby's face. or my littles' faces. not even in the mirror. you know what my answer was this morning? palm springs. alone. yup. called the hubs to tell him i'm booking it and OUTTA HERE! sometimes you just gotta be alone with you to find yourself again, ya know?

Amber said...

so cute!!! I can relate to how you are feeling too.

pakosta said...

such adorable photos! LOVE the light!

pakosta said...

how about scrapbooking your beautiful photos?
an art journal for you? alone time at barnes & noble once a week?!
an all girls trip would be wonderful!

Jennifer said...

sweet photos!
Hugs...I have felt the same too :) I'm sure you'll find something to put a smile on your face!

Lisa Fliehman said...

Love the photos!!!
Those are some memories captured!

Fickle Cattle said...

That happens to me a lot too. It comes in waves, and disappears as suddenly as it appears. I wish you the best.

Sarah L. said...

The corn is too cute!

This article made me smile!

Moments and Impressions said...

oh man I am right here with you on this one. I am trying to figure out what it is that I need to figure out (and that is a mess - even in text!)