I have been thinking a lot this week about being a Mom and the heavy burden that lays on my heart.
It's a job I do not take lightly.
Each day, I set out to love, care, teach, and raise them to be the grown people I know they can be.
Loving, creative, caring, nurturing, responsible, and about 543,689 other adjectives to describe the most perfect citizen.
But this week I am realizing some things.
I can lead them to the path, but it is truly their decision, which way to turn.
This is not an easy pill to swallow. The thought of them making a wrong decision sets my heart in a tail spin.
But it happens, BELIEVE me it happens.
You can lead and lead, but that one moment when they choose not to follow, can send your world crashing down.
I know, I am being a bit dramatic with my thoughts of the future, I mean they are 5 and 2.
But when you see other mothers, mother you know did it, they lead and lead, and then one step down that dark shadowed path altered their future for the worst, just makes me think and think hard.
But how do I know I am doing it?
That is working?
That their lives will be fulfilling and fruitful?
So many questions that will be answered over time.
I need to stop wishing for a crystal ball, cause it takes me out of the current.
I need to focus, on what they are today, and the future will be always be there, waiting.
But these moments will be gone for ever.
