Mom in the Shot {Jan 19th I am a Mom, always learning and adapting}

When I started writing this post it started out humorous.

All about me embarrassing my kids with public displays of affection and how I will try to make them do this forever and ever.

But then my mind got serious looking at this image.

Tears weld up and flowed all over my keyboard.

Wasn't sure why at first.

But then I realized what was going on.

I was afraid.

I was afraid that my own guilt about things might bring insecurities of their own.

That my wanting them to stay forever my little babies might bring moments of doubt of who they are or should be.

That loving on them as fiercely as I do, could make them dependent on me and not the independent thinkers I know they should be.

And most of all that my dreams for them will cloud their own.

I know these feelings may dissipate and just be replaced with new mommyhood insecurities.

Or they may always be there.

Learning the best thing I can do when these moments happen, is to take deep breathes and let the tears come.

Because when I suppress them, the my world gets smaller and my emotions become more intense, creating a claustrophobic effect in my chest = no bueno.

Another thing that helps is blogging these feelings and hearing from you all, that I am not alone.

So, now I ask, any mommyhood insecurities you want to get off your chest?

Please share.

As always linking up with Em.

*Bad Blogger Alert*

*DISCLAIMER*

-This post may across as needy and insecure.

-The photos in this post has nothing to do with it.

But I can not post without pictures.

We all like comments, lets be real.

And when you put all this time and energy into a post that gets two, or *sigh* ZERO comments,

it hurts.

My head starts spinning thinking what did I say, what didn't I say?

And it is never good when you hop onto another blog and see they have a 30 comment a day minimum. {insert insecurity}

I know I should not be comparing my life or blog to others but it is hard not to do.

{what you do not have a coozie for your icecream?!}

But then I am like hey wait, how many comments did I leave today?

One? Maybe two out of the 100 or so blogs I have in my reader.

Thats not cool.

{I went in and survived}

How can I expect people to do something that I have not been doing. I have decided I need to change this. Your life and blog is just as lovely as mine and why not give lovin to both.

Jami blogged about it awhile back, encouragement along friends should be done period.

{could you spare a square?}

So I have committed myself to be a more active commenter. Someone who pulls post up outside reader and leaves comments.

Ones that have some meaning, substance, encouragement, love and support.

{think its time for a new bra when you see this?}

So here is the deal I want to start this off on a good foot. I am adding a linky to this post a place for you to leave the link to a post, that you feel got neglected, overlooked and is in need of bloggin lovin. And over the weekend I am making a promise to read them and leave a comment on each of them. You do not need to commit to that but maybe commit to 5 or 10.

Lets join together and share some love.

*SIDE NOTE*

All the photos in this post came from my instagram account: bugandbeansmomma

Em+Me+Pink Bike=AWESOME {TOMS winners}

I do not take complaints easily.

I get all shifty, blush, avoid eye contact, and oddly enough put on a british accent {I know weird}.

So when Em and I went on a girl date and had a little photog sess a few months ago,

I was WAY self conscious.

But I made a deal with myself lock all that self conscious mumbo jumbo in the car

and allow myself to be ok with myself.

Do this.

Grab a friend.

Get dolled up.

Go somewhere pretty.

And if you happen to have a pink bike, BRING IT.

And strip yourself of all those stupid insecurities and be in the moment and snap away.

Do it.

Just me, my girlfriend and her camera {oh and my cute pink bike.}

I love this picture.

It makes me laugh because silly us it was the ONLY pic we took together.

Ha.

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Big thanks and shout outs to my home girls Casey and Leonora for talking me up on their blogs today, makes this little chick-a-doo smile BIG TIME.{insert shifting, blushing, and that odd british accent}______________________________________

And thank you all for entering the One Day Without Shoes TOMS giveaway.

The three lucky winners of $50 gcs are....

Mandy {Mandipidy}

Lindsey

Michele

Email me ladies amyholgersen@gmail.com

You have 48hrs or I pick new winners!